Our self image is the blueprint which determines exactly how we will behave, who we will mix with, what we will try and what we will avoid; our every thought and every action stem from the way we see ourselves.
-- Andrew Matthews, Being Happy, 1988
Your sexual health and attitude are determined by multiple influences -- your parents, friends, teachers and your environment and culture -- but the most important influence is you.
Most of the time we do not question the way we behave. Our actions reflect habits of thought and established beliefs about ourselves and others. We should critically examine our thoughts and behaviors. Sometimes we will need to adapt our beliefs to new realities. The capacity for positive change is vital to success in life.
A Bill of Human Rights
I believe every person has the right to:
Respect
Honesty
Express your own feelings
Be listened to
Be taken seriously
Be different
Make mistakes
Be perfect
Be detached
Be loved
Love yourself
Author Stuart Wilde proclaimed the first nine of these human rights at a talk I attended in 1990. The last two (the right to be loved and the right to love yourself) I have added.
I believe the key to sexual health (and to happiness in life) is in the last one: the right to love yourself. Only through learning to love yourself you will find happiness, peace, and bliss. I am not talking here about sexual love but about agape (pronounced ahgarp-ee). Agape is probably best defined as a tremendous love for life and is akin to altruistic love or having regard for the well-being of others.
Loving Yourself
What does loving yourself mean when our society says we should do things for others? Loving yourself is a feeling of being centered and calm within. When we can find this within ourselves we can help others to be like this too. We bring love in abundance to our lives.
To learn to do this you need to be able to discipline yourself. You need to be able to say, 'No'. You need the discipline of being able to make yourself do things that are good for you and not do the things that are bad for you. Discipline is not a really popular concept in our self-indulgent society. Often we find it very difficult to say 'No' to things we know are bad for us. We say 'just this one more time' and think it will not make any difference. But it does. Things add up little by little. Instead we might learn that saying 'No' just one more time strengthens our character, helps us to respect ourselves, and is the path to making our lives just that little bit happier.
Respect yourself and assert your rights
People often think that if they say 'No' it means they don't like or love the person who is asking. How wrong this is! Responsible parents often say 'No' to their loved children. They will say 'No' when the child wants to play on the road or with a knife, precisely because they love their child. It is the same in adult life except we've forgotten that saying 'No', because we care about ourselves and the other person, can be positive.
Learn to be assertive. In our society we think that to be assertive is to be aggressive. It is not. It is just that you respect yourself, and the more you learn to respect yourself the more you will learn to respect others. You have a right to say, 'I want...' and 'I insist...' and to be heard by your partner. If your partner does not hear or listen to you, this is telling you something very fundamental about your relationship: that your basic rights of being a person are not being respected. Please allow yourself to have these rights.
Talk about what you want
OK, I say what I want and my partner says what they want, and they are different. Where do I go from here? You have got past the first major hurdle. You are both talking about what you want. That is the basis of a relationship: to discuss what you both want then to talk about a solution where you will both be happy because you respect each other's feelings and right to be different.
In looking after your sexual health, you have a right to want to remain healthy and free of disease. You must take these responsibilities on your own shoulders and not assume your partner will be responsible for you. In good relationships, your partner will want to share the responsibility with you and they will talk about it. There will be no assumptions.
Talk talk talk
In a relationship we often act as though the other person is clairvoyant -- that they know what we are thinking or what our feelings are, without being told. This idea may strike you as romantic, but most partners are not clairvoyant -- you need to get used to explaining yourself so that they understand you. Often you need to repeat yourself so the message gets through. Perhaps one of the hardest things for a human being to do is to really recognize and accept as valid another person's point of view, when it is different from their own.
Practice saying explicitly what you mean and checking that you have been clearly understood.
'Are you sure?'
'Is that all?'
'Do you really mean...?'
'What is it that you are trying to say?'
Help your partner to say exactly what they mean, especially when they are embarrassed or frightened. Remember, in any discussion, do not devalue yourself. Stick to your Bill of Rights. If there is a disagreement, respect the other person's opinion and acknowledge that you have heard it, but stick to what you feel is right for you. 'I appreciate your opinion but I do not accept that it is right for me.'
Communication, respect, and STDs
What's all this got to do with sexual diseases? So I've been talking about your rights as a person and about communication and respect in a relationship. That might be fine in a marriage guidance book, but what's it got to do with sexual disease? Quite a lot.
Examine your current sexual relationships. Is there any risk that you could catch a sexually transmittable disease?
Do you have just one partner?
How often do you change partners?
Is your partner being faithful to you?
If you are not being faithful to your partner, what makes you think they are being faithful to you? Remember it can take only one fleeting sexual contact to catch a disease.
What is your partner's sexual history?
What of your own sexual past, are you sure you are not carrying hidden infection?
Only if you can fully answer all these questions can you really know what your risk of sexual disease is. Only then can you know if you are taking all the precautions necessary to maintain your sexual health.
I think you'll see that only relationships based on open and trusting communication can allow you to assess your risk and act to control it.
Sex just happens -- or does it?
There is a myth in our society that sex is something that 'just happens'. There is also a myth that men in particular have uncontrollable sexual urges. Many people act out these myths, using them as an excuse not to take responsibility for themselves. This is where the practice of discipline and saying 'No' is essential.
The more you say 'No', the stronger you become as a person. When people do not own responsibility for their own sexual urges they often deny the fact that there are diseases circulating which they can catch. They expect other people to make the world safe for them. But when there are lots of other people like them, also denying their responsibilities, the world is not safe at all.
In real life, the people involved actually think about sex before it happens: that it might happen and that they would like it to happen. You can plan ahead. The hardest thing to do is to make a change and maintain the change, but when you are sure you are making a correct decision stick to your guns. Remember your Bill of Rights.